Stressful

So the year of 2014 has started.  I am not happy most of the day whenever I need to go to work.  The work has become a burden to me.  I know if I am enjoying the work and if I love the work, I wouldn't have think that they are my burden but they are my daily life pass.  

So time passes, everything changes this year compare to last year, from easy to difficult and complicated.  How I gonna survive through the whole year?  This is the question I always ask myself.  Now that I have my own commitment already because I bought a car! I can't just say I want to quit from the job or I don't want to be responsible on my work.  I need money desperately just because I need to pay for my car loan.  Sobs...

Yet...

Life still go on, I need to find my way to survive.  This is how life should be right?  I think that too.  I need more strength on this seriously.  Some might think that why am I so negative towards the new management in the company.  I know I should take it as a new challenge like I always did before I come into the new era of working world.  But dude, you know what?  The environment of working here is way too far from what you think (I guess), cause I need to be super self-protect from getting bullied by others.  I really don't mind of physically bullied because no matter how tired of you physically, you still can go take a nap or long sleep, then you will recharge.  The story is different when it comes to mentally bully.  You will become hot temper, can't sleep well at night where you got nightmare almost every night, pimples come out all over the face.  Sigh...  This is much worst than have one whole week of sleepless during FYP.  

I really miss schooling life.  Friends are more sincere even though there are still some of them always think so childish and act like kids, but at least they show it right on your face!  Now after you start working, not only you need to know what is beneath the mask they are wearing.  

Well again, life still goes on.  I still have to work until I get a better job which I enjoy it.  Some how this is really a challenge for me to learn to become a tough person, I know I know...

I am so in comfort zone where everybody feed my with spoon, help to clean all the dirt on my mouth like baby... and now I got to find my way to find food and eat myself and clean my dirt myself.  

Fuh... Monday with emo post huh... Hahaha!

ps: fighting!!

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2014 Resolution

Omg!  Can you imagine that today is already 2014!!!  Now I have to start to adapt myself from writing the date in 2013 already.  Omg, new year already which means I am heading to another year older! omfg!!!

Getting to the news of the new year, my company has just set new rules for us which we have more commitment now compare to last year.  I heard my boss said this time will be serious case and if we didn't able to do as what asked we will be set.  I am really got shock but pretend to be nothing.  (You know la... Me...)  Nah... get set will be in a while.  I know.  So I need to get back up before it comes!  Lolzzzzz

Back to the topic.  My new year resolution.  

I never wanted to have one until my uni-mates, ML and SW taught me so...  So now I am going to continue mine here.  Seriously, I never really read through what I set last year.  #shame on me  I just wrote there and left them for a year, JUST LIKE THAT.  fml

Let's preview to the last year first see how many I have achieve.  You can either see the bottom pic which I had snip from my blog of last year, or go to this link to have a look.

1. PASS cause I did have lots of fruit and vege especially when my face got worst.  Lolzzz  
2. PARTIALLY cause I did have exercise but only like twice a week or once a week.  Stress make me so lazy and feel wanna sleep all the time.  :'( 
3. if I take the weight that I measure that time on the day I wrote my resolution for 2013, I guess I consider passed this one too cause my weight currently still remain as the day!  But in the middle I did lose some weight and I gained back at the end of the year.  So I consider this one as PASS lolzzzz.
4. FAIL.  omg, I feel myself so useless....  
5. FAIL...  another one.  I didn't do what I asked for myself at all!  really fml...
6. yeap, I am out of probation already~! Good one but of course it is not because I am capable enough but because boss gave too high of expectation on me.  He told me so that I shouldn't been getting any confirmation with my result now!  thanks boss!!!  about the promotion thingy, er...  I failed la... so PARTIALLY  lo~ hahaha!
7. I paid mommy more that I asked for!  So I am PASS for this one! yeah~
8. okay... this one super FAIL cause I didn't control my mood but a friend (the tutor) guided me all along.  thanks dude!

So that's it for my previous resolutions.  Sucks right?  I think that too!  only 3/8 pass, 2/8 partially, and 3/8 fail!  Lolzzzz

However I got so many that fail, but I got many things through the year!  I get to know a good friend in this year who guided me so much.  I finally bought a new car which I am now have more commitment compare to last time.  I lost a lot but in the same time I gain a lot (not in the meaning of my weight k), so I am glad of everything I have now.  I don't want to be too greedy to ask for more.  God will give if He thinks I work for it.  So, just do it! 

Let's go to the new resolution for this year.

1. Hopefully I can stay in this company for another year which I had been promised myself to work for another year (all together 2 years) for experience.  (if you have noticed I actually suffer a lot in this company mentally, but I know this is the way of learning and growing)
2. Continue to pay mommy at least RM500 per month although I now have to pay for car loan!
3. Do as what asked by boss even though I think the mission this time is very difficult. *pout*
4. Get more friends (this is as per requested by someone) which means add more friend into my real friend list.
5. Stay healthy, pretty and slim so I can fit into more nice clothes! Haha (so means that I need to earn more money or find a rich bf! wtf)
6. Buy a laptop or tablet for myself so can be more convenient when bring my laptop out.  Need a long lasting battery life-span and small enough but can use Microsoft Office in it.

I think that's all la...  I don't dare to simply set resolution already, so paiseh if I didn't really fulfill what I aimed for!  #shame on me

Okay la, stop day dreaming already!  Let's fight for a better tomorrow in this wonderful year!  

#challenge accepted!

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