Complicated

My feeling now is totally complicated.
I hate this kind of feeling because I found that whenever I faced this feelings I will definitely don't know how to solve it or tell somebody although I think that I should have tell him/her.

I know that I have been laughing a lot lately.
Actually is I don't know how to show the real expression, that's why I choose to laugh or smile on whatever I faced in front of the crowd.
Most of you never notice this and you will just ask why am I keep laughing although that things is serious and I seems to be like not serious at all.

Seldom tell people what do I feel, if you are the unlucky one then I will tell you.
Hope you don't mind to become my unlucky friend, because if I tell you my story, I will still hiding something in there.
It is difficult to open heart to others.
I shall admit this sentence.
For me, I still haven't find a correct person to spell everything out no matter how privacy it is.
It is not easy to find one.
And I am looking for someone that I no need to spell everything out but he can understand me.
Because I really hate to spell things out, I rather keep them with me.

Telling the truth, actually my laughter is a fake.
What you see is just surface, but sometimes the laugh is real.
Hahax, nobody can see through this except for myself.
I think it is good too because seldom people cannot really get what I really feel.
Because sometimes they think that with a happy person then you will happy too.

Good~~~
I can make people happy although I am not 100% happy.
And I really happy with it.

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Night

Is almost 11pm already.
I wanted to sleep but I'm waiting to a call and I must wait for that call.
I become a very good sleeper after I back from KL.
Need to replace all the sleep that I have miss.

Woke up 8am this morning, quickly go to have the last check on my Identity Card.
Luckily I found it, Thank God!
Which means I no need to go Police Station and I no need to get any penalty.
^^

Then I ajak Grace to have brunch together although I just met her last night at Cherish.
I wanted to eat Poori.
Poori is seem like roti canai but it taste better than that, I think I love into the taste already.
The first time I ate Poori was at ALIF restaurant, that time I was eating with Grace and Yi-Tsiang.
After agree to have brunch together, Grace asked me to go there earlier and ordered.
Guess how many Poori I ordered?
9
I went alone to the restaurant and I ordered 9 Poori, the waiter got a shock and he asked me is it for bungkus.
Lol.

After brunch with Grace, I online for awhile and then went to sleep at 12pm.
Wake up at 12.30pm to prepare lunch for them and slept again at 3.30pm.
I think I going to become pig because I really sleep alot.
Although I slept so much, but I still feel sleepy.
Oh my god!!!
How to overcome this a??

I don't want to become Sleeping Beauty!!!

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Wow, Hero

I was sleeping that time actually it was a nap. Suddenly I heard my dog barking, I don't what was he barking at, so I jump up from my bed and went down to have a look.

He was barking at a corner and we only realize that there is a big lizard over there.
And my dog wanted to be hero to help us to chase the lizard away.








My dong dong really yeng and really a hero..
wahahaha

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A Week

It has been a week I stayed in KL. I think I hate the life in KL.
Really hate!!! this is not because something unfortunate happen at there but is because I hate to see so many cars, vehicles.
I have to go from a destination to another destination by public vehicles!!!
Traffic Jam!!!
Difficult to recognize the route map from a destination to another.
Get to trap in a place that might not know where were you!!!
But still, there are lots of people love to stay in KL and there think that life our there is better than in Kuantan.
But for me ---> NO!!!

Well I think I am abnormal, I hate KL lifestyle but I still thinking of going to KL. I think I need to go to have body check up especially my brain >.<
But for sure is the purpose that I go to KL is not to shopping but doing my own stuff and visit my friends that she is coming back today from England.
It has been long time I didn't meet her since she went to England last year.

During the week I stayed in KL, I realize lots of things. Sometimes is suffer to act to be happy on the surface of the skin and actually you are thinking something so badly in your real identity.
Well, some action that they make is frustrating but I don' t think I want to tell them because since they are right then just let it be.
I will only tell them when there is somebody who tell me that he/she doesn't like his/her attitude then I might maybe will their that person what's the problems.
Because if I am the one who thinks that, maybe this is my own problems but not his/her problems.
Time will show everything clearly, I shouldn't be so gan jiong on all this kind of this...
Relax~~~

Right, I am a person who really can't accept when people scold me or say something on me, definitely I will feel upset although I know that this is the best way for me to realize the mistake that I have done.
Trespass.
Normally I will use it to everybody no matter that person is younger or elder than me. But honestly it is not easy to do that. This is because you will definitely feel upset to hear something bad from others and this is not the main point, the main point is you will change after you realize it but not keep on making the same mistake in the future!

During this week in KL, I feel that I am alone sometimes. I have to admit that I love to take attention from somebody, but I counldn't and I failed to. In the whole week, I am happy when I heard somebody care about me but honestly I only heard that less than 5 times. Most of the feelings is I think they feel frustrated about me. But anyway, don't care about them, just do whatever I like to as long as I don't hurt anybody so that I can have my enjoyable life all along the way.

Although there are lots of sadness but I still remember some of the happiness over there. I will show you my happiness when you see the pictures that I going to post soon.
I haven't get any pictures yet because all the pictures are with Yoke and Ching Chian. I haven't meet them and I am thinking on how to take pictures with them because I believe that their pictures' size is very very big!!!

Anyway, I want to thanks for the person who willing to listen to me and give some oppinion to me. Sometimes I laugh when you talking is because I don't what expression that I should give. I don't what the environment to be to tension and I don't want others to see my sadness look.
Hahax. @@

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Hello Guys,

Sorry for not updated my blog for more than a week.
I have been busying in KL for a conference that I attended recently as I mentioned in my previous post.
Although I been to KL earlier than the registration date of the conference, but I don't even have time to online and there got no internet services for me...
hahax.

Anyway, I will update my pictures into my blog very soon right after I got all the pictures from them...

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